After starting mega-vitamin therapy in mid 2007 and finally abandoning psychotropics in April 2009, my brain functioning and thinking has become steadily clearer, making my susceptibility to emotional over-reacting with the concimitant distortions of judgement and reason, increasingly less disruptive and more and more easily reasoned away. If feelings and emotions are built on opinions and if those opinions are more easily brought in line with reason and logic, then unhelpful emotional reactions will fade away, and they are. However, this new world of reality is taking some getting used to, since in my past, all my emotional motivation was derived by creating fantasies apart from reality. With those fantasies increasingly a thing of the past, I'm having to re-appraise my perception of "reality", and find elements in reality to believe in, rather than imaginary idols in my fantasy worlds, and my learned inctinctive assumption that there is nothing in reality to believe in, needs to be questioned and re-thought out. Ultimately my prejudice against reality has to be abandoned, and I have to summon the courage to find things that are real to believe in, which are not part of of "alternative reality" created to avoid the authentic reality. Realising that down to earth reality is NOT the hell I've always assumed it to be, and that the idealistic utopias I escaped into, are NOT just my own personal fantasy, but expressions of a version of reality, of which my real environment as a child told me nothing. Ultimately, in my perception, The Baha'i Faith explains reality in a balanced, down to earth way, which reconciles idealism with realism, and makes a sensible escape from both nihilistic cynicism and skepticism, AND delusory psychotic dream-worlds.